Do y'all struggle with wondering if something happens in your life because God is speaking to you and trying to show you the path He wants you to take or if things just happen because they happen? Hubby and I have always believed that when we pray about something God will show us the way He wants us to go. But this wasn't something we were asking direction about, and it took me a while to catch on.
When we were in Houston we were a part of a Performing Arts Co-op, and we loved it. #1 played the violin and was in choir, #2 played the recorder and was in choir, and #3 was in the little kids choir. Of all the things I have always been sad about my children missing out on not going to public school, choir was definitely the one that I knew I would miss the most. The Co-op filled that want perfectly.
Then we moved. And there was no performing arts co-op. I did find a choir that met once a week in the evenings. It wasn't a homeschool choir, but that wasn't necessarily what I was looking for. I just wanted my girls to be in a choir. We moved too late in the year last year for the girls to be involved, but I was waiting expectantly for the new school year so they could join. We eventually decided that just #1 would be in the choir this year. So these are the events that happened that made us stop and think.
1. The website hadn't been updated since their Christmas program last year. I couldn't get any information off the website and was relying solely on getting emails from the director for information.
2. I got an initial email from the director that was sent to anyone she had gotten any interest from about joining the choir at the beginning of August stating that they were still looking for a venue to hold auditions, but that they were expecting them to be held anywhere between the middle and end of August.
3. I kept my tendency to be in control of everything in check and did not contact the director on the 15th asking why I hadn't heard anything about the auditions. I assumed they were having trouble finding a place to hold the auditions and I didn't want to be one of the parents bombarding her with emails.
4. When the end of August came and I still hadn't heard anything I decided to send an email making sure the auditions were still going to happen. She wrote back saying we had missed the auditions by a week. I never got the second email she sent out about when the auditions were going to be.
5. The director stated that she was willing to let #1 audition for her as long as we were willing to come to her home. However, she was having knee surgery the next day so I needed to wait a week and then call her to set up a time. #1 was going to end up auditioning on Wednesday or Thursday and the choir started that Thursday night. We had something going on Thursday afternoon, but I didn't think it would be a problem. I never got to talk to the director. She never answered her phone. I was always leaving voice mails and then getting an email back after a couple of days.
6. I told several people about #1 being a part of the choir and had reminded myself several times about needing to call the director on the exact day she said to. That day came and went and I never thought about calling even one time. This is not normal for me. When I finally did think about it, around 7 that night, I was horrified that I had forgotten. It's just not something that I do. So I tried to call the director immediately. Her phone rang several times, but never went to voice mail. I sent her an email but hadn't heard anything from her by the next morning.
At this point, I finally started to catch on that there were certainly a lot of road blocks being put up about #1 joining this choir. It didn't make sense to me. Why would God not want her to be a part of a choir? But the more I prayed about it the more I became certain that that was indeed what God was trying to show us. I talked with Hubby about it when he came home for lunch and we were in agreement that God was showing us that this wasn't the way He wanted us to go.
Which is easy to establish in our own hearts and minds. Not so easy to explain to our 11 year old who had been looking forward to this for a year. I'm so thankful for her attitude about it. She was upset, but she didn't question why we had made the decision after we explained it to her. It didn't make it any easier to watch her cry though.
Once I finally came to the realization that God wanted us to close this particular door I became aware of some things that had happened that might be pointing towards another door being opened, but that's for another post!
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